Except I just ranted several peoples' ears off so..this seemed smarter.
The Shoulds have infested me big time, I think.
The previous winters spent lazing around inside looking at pretty weather and reading mindblowing texts and eating scones and such, the winters I love, have been replaced by the fact that I SHOULD be standing, be outside, should be eating better, should be doing things better, should be up to this, should be up to that, should read less, should focus more, should should should should. I don't know where they came from. Some kind of grab at control I'd assume, but alas the lazy bookish section of me is too strong for that to occur therefore instead of the Shoulds OR the other part of me to win, they're both just an inner tug of war and im getting nothing done in either category.
so this is me making a concerted effort to stop with that trash. que sera sera, as they say.
Rant time:
ReplyDelete"Shoulds" are sooooo boring. They're the overbearing Jiminy Crickets of the world and the more obnoxious idealists combined into some hybrid monstrosity of hate and self-loathing. "You could be doing better" instantly replaces "Hey, things are going okay", for no other reason then guilt or egotism. Even "What should I do?", a phrase that seems so unassuming has layers of guilt if you break it down. We have at our disposal a language full of words built on compassion and an eagerness to help, but instead countless people use a term that's loaded like a gun, simply because they've been trained to do so.
Thankfully I can't even remember the last time I used it. My Dad got me out of the habit when I was incredibly young.
Do yourself a favour. Ban it from your vocabulary.
OH HI!!! I didn't know you still existed on here :)
ReplyDeletei heart this. and you. that is all.
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